A Little Scare

This morning I woke up to a little scare with some spotting. I went in for another ultrasound but everything looks normal and we saw a heartbeat and faintly heard the heartbeat. We are not out of the woods yet. I have another ultrasound schedules for next week. Keep praying.


6 weeks 

Here is a picture of our ultrasound. I am 5 weeks and we could see a faint heartbeat which was so cool. Everything looks good and it is just a wait and see thing. Keep praying! 

We are Pregnant!

Last Thursday Phil and I were very surprised to find out we are expecting. It is still early I am barely at 5 weeks but we are very excited. I have a higher risk at miscarriages due to a chromosome abnormality so I was a little nervous to tell people so early but I figured people couldn't pray about it unless they knew about it. So keep on praying!! My doctor, Dr. Youkilis has been keeping a close eye on my hormone level and so far so good. He is going to do an ultrasound on Friday and I will get to meet with him then.

It is still early and a lot could happen in a few weeks. I know there is still a possibility I could have a miscarriage but I still have the Gift of Hope!

Happy Easter 

The Results Are In!

Well my test results are in! There is absolutely no sign of Hodgkin's. Phil and are completely thrilled with the news. We were so worried. I tried to call to get the results early but the doctor hadn't read the results and I was told to call back at lunch. As I went back and forth whether to call or just wait until my appointment I decided to wait. Once in the room we had to wait another 30-45 minutes in which Phil was pacing the floor. There must be a better way to get back test results!

God is good ALL the time!

Nervous with Hope

I am slowly approaching what will be my 1 year post chemo. I have a PET/CT scheduled for March 9th. I am a little nervous but I really can't control the outcome. All I can do is HOPE and pray that God's Will will be done and that His name be glorified.

The Struggles of Infertility

Phil and I have been trying to start a family for sometime. It has been 4 years to be exact. In 4 years we have conceived twice and I have miscarried both times. During this time there was also the little cancer thing. We are over that and ready to move on.

In July I decided to have some testing done to make sure there was not a chromosome disorder. Well it turns out there is. I have what is called a balanced translocation. After doing some research I have discovered that 5% of all couples that experience recurrent miscarriages have this disorder. Basically, I have all the right number of chromosomes but two switch places.

Phil and I decided to go ahead and consult a fertility specialist who we have seen before but before this current diagnosis. It wasn't the visit I had hoped for. While we were there I also found out that I tested Low Positive for Anticardiolipin Antibodies which basically is my body rejecting the placenta. It is possible that maybe this test was hindered by the recent chemo. I am in the process of checking on this.

Anyway the doctor did not paint a good picture for us. He would like us to see a genetic counselor to find out the odds of us having a baby.

Phil and I are now struggling with all the issues that couples have while struggling with infertility. All I ever wanted to be was a mother. It really is a difficult time for us both right now. We won't know anything until we see a genetic counselor. Please, pray that God will show us His will and that we will be at peace with this bump in the road.