December 27, 2005

The Struggles of Infertility

Phil and I have been trying to start a family for sometime. It has been 4 years to be exact. In 4 years we have conceived twice and I have miscarried both times. During this time there was also the little cancer thing. We are over that and ready to move on.

In July I decided to have some testing done to make sure there was not a chromosome disorder. Well it turns out there is. I have what is called a balanced translocation. After doing some research I have discovered that 5% of all couples that experience recurrent miscarriages have this disorder. Basically, I have all the right number of chromosomes but two switch places.

Phil and I decided to go ahead and consult a fertility specialist who we have seen before but before this current diagnosis. It wasn't the visit I had hoped for. While we were there I also found out that I tested Low Positive for Anticardiolipin Antibodies which basically is my body rejecting the placenta. It is possible that maybe this test was hindered by the recent chemo. I am in the process of checking on this.

Anyway the doctor did not paint a good picture for us. He would like us to see a genetic counselor to find out the odds of us having a baby.

Phil and I are now struggling with all the issues that couples have while struggling with infertility. All I ever wanted to be was a mother. It really is a difficult time for us both right now. We won't know anything until we see a genetic counselor. Please, pray that God will show us His will and that we will be at peace with this bump in the road.